An Unexpected Salsa Dancing Moment

Last Friday evening, we went for an incredible dinner at the Pump House in Hotwells with two other couples. It was amazing food (I won’t mention the half cooked mackerel – still can’t figure out if they meant to do it that way or not – either way, without any real complaints, they took it off the bill. That is really unheard of in a British restaurant.).

Food coma and bottle of wine later, we headed out to a club I have never been to before. I opted for the couch to discuss engaged life with my newly engaged friend, Anna – despite having to scream very, very loudly over the obnoxious music. I also opted for water for the duration of that visit. I just can’t hang with the young folks anymore.

Or perhaps, it’s the old folks I truly am a kindred spirit with.

I’m not sure when they entered, or if they were there the entire time, but all of a sudden, I noticed a large group of older Spanish people (mostly women, but a few men too) behind me. Whereas no one in the entire club was dancing, they were screaming, dancing and laughing. I looked at my watch – 1AM. When did that happen?

And, what were they doing up?

As soon as the group erupted into circular formation, I had had enough! Of the couch. I jumped up, and much to the surprise of my British friends and of the Spanish group, oh, and of myself, I joined them. I linked my arms in one man’s and another woman’s and danced.

I’m sure the water wasn’t spiked. I’m sure I had never met these people before, but I’m also sure I desperately needed them at that moment. These random, soul-filled Spanish strangers doing the mamba in a seedy, Bristolian club got me out of my seat. I danced with them. They laughed at me. My British friends looked on in curious, non-judgmental anticipation.

The Spanish took me into their wing. These women more than twice my age were having the time of their life, and I wanted to be a part of that. Their souls chirping and high on the bad music. Bad music didn’t matter to them – it was music, after all. It was meant to move to.

I tried to speak the little amount of Spanish I do know, and they just smiled in that way that says “I have no clue what the hell you are saying, but you are a sweetheart.” We didn’t need to speak the same language.

As much as I might not physically look like the Hispanic community – it’s in me, after all, I am half Cuban, and spiritually, I relate more to them than I do my white polo shirted other half. And, it’s moments like these that it comes out – as if the voices of my ancestors are screaming at me to let those full Cuban hips shake.

When the lights in the club came on, the sweat was wiped from everyone’s brows and it was time to go home – every single one of those women and men hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I felt so accepted, and for that brief moment I was home.

April Secret Post Club

I have to admit, I went on checking the mail (er, post) everyday until my package was received. I haven’t felt this way since I applied for colleges, Baltimore School for the Arts and since I purchased my Victoria’s Secret bathing suits in 2008.

And, how lovely! Mediocre Mum (that’s her own name, I am not calling her that!) had a bag specially designed for me on zazzle.com for the summer. It’s perfect because, quite honestly, I don’t have a summer bag. I have a winter bag, a handbag, a backpack, but I don’t have a summer bag to go with a day out, a picnic, a boat ride – whatever you do in summer!

So, thank you, Mediocre Mum (oh, how bad I feel for calling her that!) for my present.

Ladies Who…Dare to Inspire

On a lighter note from my previous post, I’m getting on the band wagon, and creating my own award.

To kickstart the award ceremonies off, I’m going to announce a few people who have been on my mind.

There have been a few people who have truly made a difference in my life since I started this blog, and I would like to recognize them. They may not know they have; they may not have reached out personally, but in some way, these people have made me re-think my opinions, helped me to succeed in my own quests or just written such brilliant entries that it inspires me to better myself.

Every last Friday of the month from now on, I will be acknowledging one female blogger who I feel dares to inspire. She doesn’t have to just inspire me, she can inspire the world, one little girl or a dog. It’s up for debate.

Without any further ado, in no particular order, I’d like to pass on my award to the following people:

Mid-Atlantic English – Michelle reached out to me last month, and asked if I would join her on the journey that is Script Frenzy. Without her introduction, I wouldn’t have done it, or even known about it. Plus, she is so generous with her comments and feedback.

Smitten by Britain – Melissa is one of those women who I feel took me under wings when I was just starting out. Her love for Great Britain inspires others and her continual effort to put out great blog posts inspires me to keep my blog up to standard.

Bristolian Moments – Sabrina, don’t worry, you don’t have to share this if you don’t want to! She is just getting started, but I applaud her for starting her blog and sharing her incredible anecdotes, to emailing me when she first moved to this country to see if we could meet up and for being courageous in her attempts at making friends. She’s more ballsy than I!

A Literal Girl – Her grasp of the English language is only something I can aspire to one day. Her entries are always filled with such specific insights into everyday life, you wonder how she notices such seemingly mundane moments and turns them into …well, magic. She showed me around her town of Oxford and took us under her wings. And, at the age of 23, I know she’ll do alright for herself!

Erika Lopez – A monster girl. She is gutsy, ballsy and has opened her heart to the me and the world like no woman I have ever met. She has just started her own publishing house, and has so much in the hearth right now, you just have to go look for yourself. Incredibly talented writer, artist and woman. The way she manipulates words leaves me breathless.

Seattlite Imagery – Only just getting to know Alisha, but she and her husband have made the plunge and are official world travelers. Since that is where Jock and I are headed, I look to her blog for beautiful stories, insights and plain old ideas for my own life. She is also writing a book (I guess that’s what we unemployed gypsies tend to do!), and she exudes light and love.

RULES:

There are none!

If you’d like to pass this award forward, feel free. Otherwise, just go on and gloat.

(Also, if you do post it, it would be fantastic if you could give me a link back!)

I Hate…

I hate being imperfect. I hate it.

I hate when I get angry at things that I really shouldn’t get angry at. I hate the word “should.”

I hate when I feel I am being really funny, and no one is laughing. I hate when people don’t get my jokes.

Shall I try to be a bit more positive in this entry and change the word “hate” to the word “dislike?” Or did I actually just change the word “should” to “shall” to make it seem more proper and less matriarchal?

I hate that I already feel I should be censoring most of this entry because my mind is reeling with how many people I know who will be reading it. Is this ballsy or just plain stupidity?

I hate that I mumble my words together and then I get made fun of for it. Most of the time I pretend I don’t mind, I laugh at myself and say it’s been my lifelong joke. After all, we’re adults and we’re not supposed to get hurt by small jokes at our own expense. Hell, living in England, I’ve had to get even more of a backbone. This isn’t LA sweetie, people aren’t there to praise you all the time. Chin up and all that. I even have a bookmark that my boyfriend gave me from Mumbles, Wales that says just one word “Mumbles.” My cute nickname. I have an excuse for it though – my mumbling – when I was young, I had a speech impediment, (that usually shuts them up for a second) and I always say that when I’m on stage, I don’t mumble. It’s amazing! The stage allows me to be clear and coherent. But still, when I get really comfortable with someone, I let my mumbles come out. And then I get made fun of for it. It’s frustrating not being understood when that’s the only thing in the world I want to be.

I hate that my teeth are starting to yellow.

I hate that I can’t just accept when I’m angry at something and I want to quickly apologize and pretend that that feeling didn’t happen. It doesn’t exist. I’m not an angry person. I’m at one with myself. I am a happy person.

Sometimes I’m not happy though. Most of the time I am, but sometimes I get annoyed.

And then, when I read other blogs where people rant about what’s wrong with the world, I get even more annoyed. Who are they to share with the world how t’d off they are with it? Why do I want to read that? Why do I want to subject myself to miserable people?

Tonight that feeling feels different. I understand where they’re coming from. It is life, isn’t it? I just try not to share that side too often.

But here I am, ranting and raving at everyone else’s expense. I am truly sorry for this. (See, there I go again apologizing for being angry).

Maybe I’m not sorry. Maybe tonight I just feeling like being a bitch.

(I’m sure I’ll apologize tomorrow). In fact, I’m sure this entry won’t even be here tomorrow.

**(This is my third time taking this down and putting it back up. Perhaps there is something to be said for momentary lapses of depression and anger. Perhaps that’s when honesty really comes out, and others can relate.) Thanks Dad for this quote -

“And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.” Nietzsche

Script Frenzy Update – Day 28/30 – I did it!! I won!

Two days early, and I am up to 104 pages! I still have about six pages left to actually tie the whole story together, but it feels good! Since to win Script Frenzy, you only need 100 – I have completed it!

Also, the staff at Script Frenzy have been giving their updates, I decided to copy them and let you know a bit about my screenplay.

Genre: Romantic-Comedy

Title: The Vegas Effect

Logline: Four friends have hit the dregs of life – an abused, career-driven wife, a depressed, sex-starved actress, an emotional construction worker who cares for his autistic brother and a womanizing, recently fired, stock market trader. The only way to shake their lives up is a trip to Las Vegas.  (still working on this)

Outline: My Novel.

1. The climax of a script tends to come in a fight, a kiss, a revelation or an explosion: If you had to characterize your script’s climax as one of these, which would you pick and why?

There is a fight that comes after a big revelation.

2. Your script is almost fully formed! Or almost to 100 pages at least. Break it down for us:

Best Line:

MILES

You know. Every American has a

phone number that begins with 555.

It’s in the movies and on all the

television programs. Everyone knows that.

This line is stolen from real life.

Worst Line:

GREGORY

As much as I’d like to beat my

gum’s with you, gotta get back to

work. Let’s make it snappy.

Very bad line, but kind of goes with character.

Funniest typo: “Kis Kis” – somehow I forgot the extra S. The word doesn’t have the same effect without the extra S.

Best visual: “Main Character crawls on all fours through vanity area to main room. She slowly crawls around the room, turning off all the lights. The DOOR IS KNOCKING more and more agitatedly. She crawls under the bed.”

And, most importantly, does your script test positive for the presence of an animal? (Pet / beast / pest): It does! A mountain lion!